Hi, I am bipolar.

 After learning that I am a typical bipolar (or something close to it) at the age of 40 which is very rare in this occasion, I am still trying to get it better and pick the differences of my instance alongside. 

Bipolar is usually detected at 20s or 50s. My case is a bit awkward for doctors, family and my spouse. Actually the only one that seemed to welcome it unquestionably was kind of me only. 

We are still seeing different doctors both of them are best of their class in this branch. But this results with different medications and none of the doctors are aware of the other's recipe. WOW, take the challenge from life out and what would be left there to live? No, of course I don't mean it. It's my beloved husband's making sure try and I respect his right to do it. Yes. The second thing (I don't know if I revealed the first one) I've to tell you about this mental illness is the people that care and love you are all in it with you eventually. There is no escape. You just can't live it alone. 

The last thing I discovered until now is I feel that it may be like fingertips, everyone's bipolar is her special. At first it felt like everything that I believed was me, every gesture, big laughs, witty jokes, night crawling, etc was a sickness, I was sick, I needed cure. This is the most horrible stage I assume. But soon later as you feel more controlled with care, medications and getting more informed, you get to know yourself better, your weak moments, your development clearly seen, and you feel your life kind of gains means and progress.